Day 31 the end of the challenge!

To all of you who were annoyed by my daily posts the last 31 days- have no fear because it’s the last day! I think it was fun and some of the posts were really interesting to write about & hopefully you all learned a little more about me! So without further adieu- the last post is: the first ten songs that come on my IPhone shuffle, what do they say about me? ( well I bought them which tells you I liked them enough to spend $ on them lol) I have 149 songs on my phone so here goes

1. Do what you want- Lady Gaga & R Kelly
2. Man in the Mirror- MJ
3. Just like Heaven- The Cure
4. So Rich, So Pretty- Mickey Avalon
5. Comedown- Bush
6. Pusher Love Girl- Justin Timberlake
7. I wanna dance with somebody- Whitney Houston
8. Your Love- The Outfield
9. Shake it off- Taylor Swift
10. Young & Beautiful- Lana Del Rey

That’s it! Happy Sunday xo


Day 30 3 online friends I have yet to meet

I currently have two support groups on Facebook. They are private groups, of course, of girls I have met on the What to Expect community boards.

The first group of girls I met in my early TTC days and it is a group of seven girls (including me) all who had issues trying to get pregnant. One by one they all got pregnant, but it wasn’t easy for all of them. Together we have supported each other through twin pregnancy, water breaking in the second trimester and a very scary rest of pregnancy, miscarriage, and too many chemical pregnancies to count. Even though I am the last one left to get pregnant, we still all talk often. They are a huge source of support to me still, and I would love to meet them all one day!!!

The other group is three girls who all had hydrosalpinx’s in their tubes and are undergoing IVF this year as well. It’s nice to talk to people who are undergoing the same challenges as you, and even more who have the same issue as you getting pregnant.

Then there are the two infertility blogs I have been following for years. Dreaming of Dimples is one, and was probably the first infertility blog I found. She even lives in Sacramento! Jessah  is extremely inspiring to me, she went through 3 IVF attempts and is finally pregnant from her 4th IVF using donor eggs.

The other blog I regularly follow is Rachael’s blog Unnaturally Knocked Up. She is an extremely funny infertility blogger and I adore her humor and grace towards infertility.  She went through 3 IVF fails as well, and after adding acupuncture to her plan (!!!)  she is now newly pregnant with TWINS!

So there are all the ladies I wish I knew “in real life”

Happy Weekend,



Day 29 – Do I collect anything?

I like to collect mini shampoos and soaps from hotels LOL. I don’t even know why. I just really like travel size everything I guess.

I don’t even always use them, but I have a big gallon size zip lock bag I keep them in and since I travel so often I will usually bring them with.

I also subscribe to Birchbox and it fuels my need for travel size everything! 🙂


Day 27 & Day 28

Day 27 10 People I would invite to dinner and why?

This isn’t specific on who to invite (celebs? People who have died? ???) So I decided to choose ten celebrities (of course) that I would want to have for dinner.Five women and five men, just to keep it balanced! After compiling the list I realized I basically just chose 5 guys I think are very good-looking (but still interesting or funny)  and 5 girls I would want to be friends with. HAHA! Oh well, in no particular order:

1. Justin Timberlake

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2. Jennifer Lawrence

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3. Charlie Hunnam

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4. Emmy Rossum

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5. Jason Sudeikis

6. Jennifer Aniston

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7. Channing Tatum

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8. Reese Witherspoon

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9. Ryan Gosling

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10. Kate Hudson

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Ok! Day 28 Do I have regrets?

Sure, who doesn’t have regrets? I regret not trying harder in high school. I regret some of the guys I chose to date. I regret not trying to have a baby earlier. I try to not let myself think too hard on these, as I can really only move forward and looking back in the past and thinking about what I wish I would have done (or not done) doesn’t get me anywhere. I can only change what I am going to do today & in the future, so even though I do have regrets, I do my best not to let them get the best of me.



Day 26 A Quote I Try and Live By

Everything will be okay in the end. If it is not okay, it is not the end.

I have always loved this quote because it really does put things into perspective. We all go through super shitty times in our life but I truly believe that everything will work out in the end. When things get really dark for me, this is something I will tell myself over and over until I can pick myself back up. I am a big quote person, so I could of had a few for todays post, but this is definitely my favorite.



Day 23, 24 & 25

Ok so I have a little catching up to do from the weekend:

Day 23 When Was the Last Time I cried and Why?

I cried yesterday when I watched the last Shameless episode with Matt (anyone watch that show? It is SO good) It’s actually more of a comedy but last night was the first time I ever cried watching it, and it is on season 5 I think! Def an emotional episode.

Day 24 My Zodiac Sign and Do I Think It Fits Me?

I am a cancer, and I have always thought it did fit me, for the most part. Here are the strengths & weaknesses of my sign, and if they fit me

Cancer Strength Keywords:

– Loyalty YES
– Dependable YES
– Caring YES
– Adaptable YES
– Responsive YES

Cancer Weakness Keywords:

– Moody YES
– Clingy NO
– Self-pitying NO
– Oversensitive DEFINITELY YES
– Self-absorbed DEFINITELY NO

Day 25 Something I always think “WHAT IF” about:

Obviously, I always think what if I don’t get to be a mother? Or what if I don’t get to experience pregnancy? Or what if I never have a biological child, what if we have to adopt? These “what ifs” keep me up at night, and rule my conscience. I hate it 😦

I don’t like to be negative but I do like to feel prepared for the worst, and thinking about plan B, C and D somehow makes me feel better when the “what if’s” get the better of me.

Anyways, I thought I would update you all on the fitness/nutrition preparation for IVF. I did really well last week and went to the gym 4 days out of the week, where I ran for 30 minutes each day. I am able to run faster and longer each time, which I am proud of. I did one day of yoga as well. I am starting to feel “tighter” and less pudgy than before, but alas, the scale really isn’t moving. I kind of know why. I do really well Monday through Friday, eating well and working out and then on the weekends I eat what I want. I SUCK at dieting on the weekends, especially if I am with friends and have social outings, which I did this weekend. I know that if I truly want to lose more than the 5 lbs I already lost (which was just water weight) I really need to put the pedal to the metal. So hopefully with that realization, I can lose another 5 lbs in a few weeks- wish me luck, people!

Sorry for the long post, have a great day! xo


10 songs I’m loving right now

This was kind of hard because I don’t listen to the radio much, just Pandora. So in no particular order ten songs that are my jam right now are:

1. Blank Space by Taylor Swift ~ I know it is old by now but it always gets stuck in my head and I end up singing it all day (much like ALL T Swift songs) Also, really fun to sing in the car.

2. Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran ~ LOVE

3. Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding~ From the Fifty Shades of Grey Soundtrack

4. Jealous (Remix) by Nick Jonas ft. Tinashe ~ Yes, this Nick Jonas song, only the dirty (and original-fun fact) version 😉

5. Take Me To Church by Hozier

6. Uptown Funk by Bruno Mars ~ Still love rocking this one

7. I’m Not the Only One by Sam Smith

Older Songs I still love:

8. Love On Top by Beyoncé ~ a fav of mine

8, Titaniun by Madilyn Bailey ~ love her slow cover of this song

9. Not a Bad Thing by Justin Timberlake (or just the whole 20/20 album. I still listen to it every day)

10. Don’t Stop Believin’ by Journey ~ Fav song of all time!


Day 20 where do I see myself in 10 years?

Where do I see myself in 10 years?

Well, by then I will be 40 years old (eek!) and I hope to have at least 2 kids- maybe three?!

I believe we will still be living in Sacramento, just because we love it here, but there is always a possibility of moving to the bay area as well.

I hope that I’ll  be farther up in my career, of course.

That’s all I can really think of, to hope that Matt and I are healthy and happy in ten years with kids!

(almost done with this blog challenge!!!)



Day 19 some of my worst habits

Ugh…I have a lot.

Some are harmless: I do laundry and instead of hanging it up after it gets out of the dryer I throw the clothes on my bed. If I am too tired to fold them when I go to bed, I throw them on my vanity. The cycle continues until I am disgusted with my laziness and hang them up. Who does that?!

Some bad habits will probably get me into trouble one day. I like to live dangerously and drive around with my gas light on. Why wouldn’t I just pull over and stop for gas? Couldn’t tell you.

Then there are really, really bad habits. This particular one is so bad, I hesitate to even admit it on this blog ( Matt even told me I shouldn’t lol) But what’s the point in this challenge if I am not honest? So here it is: I pick at my feet. UGH THE SHAME! It’s mostly in the summer-when my feet get tore up from sandals and walking barefoot. I will pick at calluses, then get grossed out for doing it. I have to get regular pedicures just to stop myself, since I don’t even realize I am doing it half the time.

There, now you know my dirty little habit I am so embarrassed to admit. I feel better already 🙂