Today we had our WTF appointment with Dr Stephens. I was very nervous about it because it was going to be her take on why the cycle didn’t work. I had a bunch of questions for her, and being the great doctor she is, answered almost all of them before I even had a chance to ask them.
We started at the beginning of the cycle, and she said everything went well, I responded great and things obviously went downhill after retrieval. She said based on what we know now my trigger shot should of been pushed back a few days to let my little follicles catch up to size. Matt & I had kind of already figured this out, being that we only got 7 mature eggs to work with. We all agreed a more aggressive protocol would be used for IVF2 to ensure that I also produced more eggs. This was all good news, and then came the not so good news:
The embryologist notes from egg retrieval state that my eggs didn’t look so good. It obviously was in science talk and I had to have my dr dumb it down for me, but that’s basically the gist. They aren’t horrible- but they aren’t “textbook” eggs, and that is obviously why our embryos didn’t live past day 3 and probably why I am not pregnant. My Dr also suspects that because of this new info it could very well be the reason why I haven’t been able to get pregnant on my own.
So there it is, as I had suspected. My eggs. I bypassed my big issue only to be confronted with a new one. I hate to pity myself but God what did I ever do to deserve this?
We talked extensively about what I could do to help improve egg quality (High amounts of coq10, adding DHEA, healthy lifestyle and less stress) there were other supplements I will email her about from what I read in “it starts with an egg” and she will look into them. Dr Stephens said that my saving grace with this is that I am 30 years old. I am still young, she thinks we should keep trying, and absolutely do another IVF cycle, as some women have gone on to get pregnant with worse off eggs and embryos and each cycle is so different.
She did however say that if we do another IVF and are met with the same results that we would probably want to start looking into egg donors or adoption. I am not ready to move to that as I am NOT ready to give up on the idea of my own biological child, but we will see how the next cycle goes.
In the meantime I just need to live life a little longer before I go into full fledge egg quality boot camp.