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Vitamins Overload

Two weeks ago I decided to start CCRM’s Egg Quality Cocktail in preparation for my IVF cycle. For those of you who don’t know who CCRM is, it stands for Colorado Center for Reproductive Medicine, and they are the best Fertility clinic in the entire country. One cycle of IVF with them will run you 30k and women from all over the world visit this clinic for their 80% success rate. Crazy, right? If I had that kind of money, I would go there in a heartbeat, but I don’t…not even close.

Anyways, awhile back I met a girl through a friend in my support group who 1. had a hydrosalpinx (my 1st fertility issue) and 2. had 2 failed IVF’s  because of egg quality issues (my 2nd issue). Her name is Janine and when I met her she was going through her 3rd IVF cycle with CCRM, and they had given her this list to take months before starting IVF.

Janine is now pregnant with a baby boy.

So obvi I am going to down these pills, right? Well, I first sent the list to Dr Stephens and asked for her thoughts. I told her it was from a friend who had gone to CCRM. Her immediate response was, well if this is from CCRM it has to be worth a shot since they are such a prestigious clinic, but let me look into it first.

After a few days she emailed me and told me that while there truly wasn’t a ton of research published on how these vitamins can effect egg quality for the better (besides COQ10) they can’t hurt to take- so go for it!

I also added in 75 mg of DHEA to this list after reading “It Starts with an Egg” Let’s hope these bad ass vitamins do the trick and I end pregnant in a few short months 🙂

For those of you interested in what I will be taking, here is CCRM’s magic egg cocktail:

Myo Inostol 2gm BID (twice a day)
Melatonin 3mg QHS (at Bedtime)
Co Enzyme q10 200mg TID (three times a day)
Omega-3 fatty acid 1000mg QD (once daily)
Vitamin C 500mg QD (Take once daily in am)
Vitamin E 200IU QD (Take once daily)
L-arginine 1000mg BID (Twice daily)
Pycnogenol 100mg QD (take once daily)

Wish me (and my eggs) lots of luck!!!

7

Starting All Over.

Hello! I am back, people. It has been two months since my last blog and honestly, I didn’t even think about blogging. Then I looked on my app and saw how long it had been. Yikes. It’s mostly due to me just enjoying my (much needed) break from everything infertility. I had a nice long six months to mourn our IVF loss, and I am very happy that I took the time I needed. it was very therapeutic to not have to think about getting pregnant 24/7. That’s right. For the first time in years, I didn’t live and breathe getting pregnant. I didn’t cry when friends got pregnant, I didn’t wander the baby isles in Target (does anyone else do that or is it just me? haha)  I just had fun and lived my life.

I got a new job! I was basically demoted from my previous position with AmierGas, not for doing bad at my job, but because they basically outsourced another department in Ohio to do my job, so I was no longer needed. I was very upset and felt very betrayed by the company I had worked for eight years. But, it worked out- within a month I found a much better job with another company! I have been with them for about a month now and it has been great! I am sad that I wont be working from home anymore, or have the same kind of flexibility, but I knew that it wasn’t always going to be like that!

We are all set for our January IVFx2. About a week ago I emailed Dr. Stephens and asked if I could have my prescription for meds sent to the pharmacy. This would ensure that I could call them and get the running total on how much money this would be costing us. Since I knew she planned on being aggressive with meds this go around, I wanted to prepare myself, financially and mentally. I gave myself 2-3 shots a day back in Aprils’ IVF but the dosages were pretty low since we knew from previous inseminations that I responded well to meds. When I did IVF the first time I was horribly bloated, sore and just straight up uncomfortable. Knowing that it is going to be worse this winter makes me very, very scared and nervous.

Anyways, she put in the meds, I got the call from the pharmacy and got the totals. Holy Shit. I could not even believe it, I asked the pharmacist to tell me what exactly the prescription called for and how much it costs. I will give you the very, very expensive breakdown:

  • 5 boxes of Centrotide: $522.50
  • 3 boxes of Gonal F 900iu pen: $1,908.00
  • 4 boxes of Gonal F 350iu pen: $636.00
  • 10 boxes of Menopur: $799.00
  • 1 Pregnyl: $95.00
  • 1 Lupron: $149.00
  • Progesterone Support: $120.00
  • Oral meds: $61.50

GRAND TOTAL: $4,291.00

Yeah, so that’s fine, right? LOL. That’s almost double what we spent in April. Pregnyl and Lupron are both used as trigger shots and I was confused as to why I needed two. When I emailed Dr. Stephens to ask her she told me it was to be used just in case I overstim, the Lupron would be used to keep me from developing OHSS. Oh ok, since I am using TEN boxes of Menopur I guess that’s good to have. I am hoping and praying that this does the trick. I know that more meds= more eggs=more retrieved=hopefully better fertilization rates=more chances for transfers. Dr. Stephens is very confident in this plan, and also not triggering as early as we did last time, so as to let my eggs mature another day or so. So I am glad to see she thought ahead of the Lupron.

Since we are roughly three months out, egg boot camp has also started. Which means back to swallowing 20 pills a day, more water than any other beverage consumed, and eating very, very healthy. I decided to forgo Acupuncture this time around. It was too expensive to do weekly, and I don’t think it helped me much besides relaxing me. I think I’d rather just get bi weekly massages instead!

I wish I could say that I am excited, I really could. The truth is, I am not at all excited. I am worried my eggs will betray me and I will be left exactly where I am now: not pregnant and 15k poorer. I am sure as it gets closer my attitude will change, but right now, the thought of doing IVF all over again terrifies me. I am just going to take it one day at a time, and do my best to relax and just not put all my hopes and dreams on the line. I want to be hopeful but ALSO be realistic.

Wish me luck! I will be updating more now that it is getting closer!

Have a great week xox