Z & N 6 weeks!

I can hardly believe that the boys are SIX weeks old today! Their birth is still so fresh in my mind that it doesn’t seem possible that it’s been this long. 

My tiny little 5 pound babies are now chunky little 8 pound babies! 

The babes are eating well (4-5 oz’s!) and growing like weeds. They were recently circumcised (which we stayed in the room for. It was awful and Matt is still traumatized!) We are currently working towards getting them to understand the difference between day/night so they will sleep a little longer in between feeds. I think it is going well, although some days/nights are really hard on us. 

Lack of sleep and taking care of twins is no freaking joke. As the boys get older they sleep less during the day and want to be up.  Matt and I try and send each other upstairs to nap in between feeds, and when they were a few weeks old it was easy because they always slept! Now if one baby is up chances are the other one is too (because they eat at the same time) so it can be difficult if they become fussy! 

Having Matt home has been a complete godsend because two people taking care of two babies helps. Plus it is just nice being able to do this together.  I am sure as soon as they start sleeping longer- last night they slept 4 hours!! Yay!- it will get easier. I have been reading lots of different sleep technique books like Baby Wise and The Happiest Baby on the Block (thank you Dr Stephens!) so we are moving in the right direction! 🙂

We are also trying to get out with the boys as much as we can. Even if that means we put them in their stroller and walk around the block. It’s important to try and get out- I get VERY bad cabin fever, so I think it’s good to get outside and practice being mobile with twins. Before I go back to work I really need to practice going places by myself- I am so nervous because I don’t think I’m ready and I get so anxious. I love Zayden and Noah but I am scared to go anywhere by myself with them. 

I am just amazed at how fast they are growing and how quickly the weeks fly by! I just wish time would slow down! I can’t even imagine how i will feel when it comes time to get ready to go back to work! Still 8 weeks away, so just going to enjoy every minute of being with my babies! People don’t lie when they tell you how fast this all goes 💙


Noah & Zayden: 3 weeks

After a 9 day NICU stay (which seems short but seemed like forever to me) we finally brought Zayden home. It was the Best Day Ever. Getting Zayden home with Noah made everything feel right.

Once they were together Matt and I buckled in for what I would call extreme parenting. We decided to stick with the schedule the NICU nurses had the boys on, so they eat every three hours. We feed them at the same time, this way they wake at the same time too.

Nighttime is the hardest, obviously. Matt and I are each responsible for one twin at night, both of us have a bassinet on our side of the bed. We do all the feeds together and 2 am is our least fav feeding time! Having to get used to sleeping in 2 hr increments is rough! But even at our most zombie- like moments we look at each other at 2 am, each feeding a baby, and we say we can’t believe this is finally our life. It’s great. Exhausting but fantastic ❤️

To add to the craziness of nighttime feeding, I also pump and bottle feed the boys breastmilk. I had a hard time nursing them, since they were pre term, it made me anxious now knowing how much milk they were getting from me. I would inevitably want to follow a nursing session with formula! So while I do still nurse (usually in the middle of the night if they are fussy) sometimes, I mostly pump and bottle feed them breastmilk.

I also have production issues with milk. It seems like I just can’t make enough for each of them to have breastmilk for every feed, so I alternate who gets BM that is pumped. It makes me so sad. I have already had a few meltdowns to Matt how stressful I find nursing/pumping. Do not get me wrong: I believe FED is best. Period. I have no issues supplementing formula for the boys. But right now it’s more like they are formula fed and I supplement with BM☹️ I’m doing my best to make sure they get some breastmilk every day, so I’m trying to not be so hard on myself. 

The boys are each 6 lbs now and their pediatrician check ups have been great! I also have been recovering from the c section very well! After two weeks I was finally able to drive (I was restricted after surgery) and it felt great since I hadn’t driven in forever! It’s nice just having things get a little back to normal.

We are also very fortunate with family and friends wanting to see the twins and coming by to bring food or let us sleep while they watch the boys. Sleep and food have truly become our lifeline since becoming parents to twins!

Things for the boys we could not do without:

Aden & Anais swaddle blankets 

Pack n play 

Rock n plays & Halo bassinets 


Burp cloths.(SO MANY)

Baby tracker (I use this one)

Zipper PJs (if you ever think it’s a good idea to buy newborn pajamas with SNAPS instead of zippers, let me tell you – they won’t get used. F snaps) 

Noah & Zaydens newborn shoot last week 💙💙